Sunday, 28 April 2013

Claustrophobic Education

I looked out of the window today, and realised that I haven't actually ever been able to enjoy one of those semi-summer mornings. The sun peeped shyly over the horizon and the sky blushed like a kid being asked his name. The air was filled with the natural symphony of twittering birds, lightly whooshing air and the rustling of the leaves in their silent duet. The atmosphere was refreshing and I felt that I could conquer the world. Then I saw the pile of text books on my desk that needed to be read and all my joie de vivre was sucked out of me faster than a horde of hungry Dementors. I trudged wearily through the daily chores, and ended up sitting beneath the dim glow of my desk light, trying to remember the formula for the slew rate of something I have no idea about. Next to the huge pile of misery which is ironically my path to third year engineering, lie the printouts of a PCB (those neat little things hat pop out of your TV remote when you inevitably break it.) we had made for our college projects. I had learnt more in those few weeks of making that project than in the months I spent in class trying to decipher the suspiciously hieroglyphic handwriting of our teacher.
Living in the heart of Pune city, I often have to traverse through streets painted head to toe with colourful banners usually with a photo of a bright, confident student, along with a rather Uncle Sam-like statement. "Do YOU want to EXCEL in life? Then join XYZ Classes" Which is perfectly fine, till you eventually stumble upon a pre-school coaching class. Pre-School? Seriously? With the new NEET pattern set to pounce upon the innocent little lives of HSC students, one can expect a rise in coaching classes, but this is the most ridiculous thing I have ever seen. And this comes from a man who has survived Jaani Dushman.
The sheer inflexibility of the conditioning, is in itself enough to shrink the child's understanding of learning to mean that which he is supposed to mug up from text books.
Having said that, it doesn't take rocket science to realise that examinations are not a measure of one's intelligence. Yet we are beings most convinced by numbers. Quality above quantity is just an excuse for people who don't get higher grades, according to us.
Yet, it has never ceased to excite me when I learn something new.My heart has always skipped a beat when I try a new circuit with a new IC. I have always crossed my fingers and my stomach has always dissolved whenever I conduct a test run. That is the rush I get from learning. And that alone is worth more than any praise, any job offer, any prowess it might result in. As a primary student I never bought the idea that learning could be fun. Because my definition of learning was limited to what we learnt in the classroom. And what happened in it was less exciting than breathing. It hardly matters what marks I get, how do I stand in my class. Because the only good thing about our education system is that you can at least pass if you know the subject well, and not regurgitating it on paper.
Wherever you go, whatever you do, whenever you do, you learn. The whole world is one massive classroom without a class teacher. You can be an absolute maniac and still come out learning a few things.(Primarily to not behave like a maniac.)
Which brings me back to my pile of books. I have never done very well in linear integrated circuits, I never remember derivations or diagrams. So I might as well break out the breadboard and a few IC's and tinker about while listening to the birds sing in the golden sun.


Friday, 12 April 2013

Becoming : A Retrospect


In my last post I have been an advocate of extreme rationality and logic in order to take a decision. And one can be blamed for thinking that I am right, and that rationalism to the extent of brutality is an appropriate attitude towards life; or one might conclude that whatever I said is bullshit and that mechanical exercise of logic is not at all a viable option, and that I am a complete idiot. Ah, if only life were so simple as to there being a right and a wrong.
The following is a poem I wrote for my college magazine, which coincidentally expresses my thoughts on, well, thinking outside the box.
So these are my thoughts on being a bit unconventional;

BECOMING

Dormant in the murky depths,
anonymously it lies,
Curled up in a ball of thought,
yet to open it's eyes.

Around it's foetal form are bustling,
clouds of logic and facts
Their monochrome paths lead on towards,
rational and conventional acts.

No novelty, no originality,
No impetus for perception a bit wide,
In their cocoons of traditionality
Immune to transcension they reside

Their aura of mediocrity,
A new thought inevitably dies,
Yet dormant in the murky depths,
anonymously it lies.

Untainted,pure, it's pristine shell,
being obliterated by ignorance so dark,
Pressing down on it's wings,bearing hard,
All it takes is a spark

A flash of light, A streak of colour,
penetrates the practical mind
And in a sudden moment of madness,
all presumptions are left behind

New possibilities begin to unfold,
ideas begin blooming anew,
In a world that has no limits,
Because of an epiphany so true

All boundaries destroyed, All rigidity melted,
It's salvation from the worldly cage,
it's time to arise is closing in fast,
An unmoulded mind it's stage

Shafts of light pierce the depths,
it finally opens it's eyes,
Free from it's darkened prison,at last,
Serenity finally flies.

Tuesday, 9 April 2013

The Principle of Duality : 50 Shades of Gray Area

              Apparently the entire nation is holding up torches (just a more dynamic way of saying banners) against something a politician said the other day, my Facebook news feed has become a complaint box for the patriotic Indian charged with the sudden surge of national pride. Can you guess what intrigues me here? Is it the insensitive comments made by him? No. Are the comments disturbing me? Well, they are irritating, taking up half of my screen, but no. It's the fact that so many of our decisions are so heavily influenced by emotions.
              Reading Sherlock Holmes last night (A Scandal In Bohemia), I happened to come across a sentence that made more sense to me than deleting the entire How I Met Your Mother series to make place for House M.D. Arthur Conan Doyle says "Grit in a sensitive instrument, or a crack in one of his own of high power lenses would not be more disturbing than a strong emotion in a nature such as his." He speaks of Sherlock Holmes, who in all respects is the ideal reasoning machine.
                To connect both the above paragraphs, any of us can take our own example. A startling majority of our decisions are based on emotions, feelings, which allow the unwelcome presence of the factor of irrationality in them. Every decision has a reason, however spontaneous it may seem. Which is why when asked the question "why?" people who answer "just like that" should be given a 619.(No, the 1 is not a typo.) And, with every reason, comes it's basis in fact. Now, here's the fun part. In any rational method of taking a decision, it should be modified to suit the facts in consideration, but what happens when, as wonderfully depicted by Looney Tunes, an angel and a devil with your face start quarrelling in your head? We begin to modify facts to suit the decision. See the vicious circle? This snowballs from a tiny moment of weakness to a moment of brutal realization of the extent of irrationality. This entire complex mental turmoil is best explained by none other than Bollywood Cinema.(Oh, the irony.) In just about any action movie, there comes a time when the hero has the barrel of a suspiciously waxy looking revolver at the forehead of the villain; when suddenly he hesitates because his anger is overshadowed by the goodness of his heart. He lowers the weapon to the sound of a sad dirge, begins to walk away in slow motion with heroic strides, the fact that half his leg is blown off doesn't hamper his swag,when the blurry villain in the background pops a cap in his ass. If Bollywood movies are to teach us anything, it is this. 
                 Emotions are an intrinsic part of what make us human. But that doesn't necessarily mean they should be mixed with every other thing that humans do as though they are the cerebral equivalent of salt. Facts remain facts irrespective of how the armageddon in your head has ended. Being impartial and almost inhumanely neutral about these things has always helped me get a crystal clear understanding of the situation I am in, and how to deal with it. This approach is often received as cold or even ruthless at times because it is rather counter intuitive.It works, but not many try it. They prefer to allow emotions to cloud their judgement because not doing so would mean accepting the fact that we do have an option to not be human.
That's what I'm talkin' about!!